Slowly, surely, old habits have begun to creep in. Less time made for friends and family. The regularly scheduled calls get overlooked. Work swells on the calendar. The feeling... busy.

I fear I am returning to the person I was before the pandemic. This note is a stand against this.

  • If you forget to put your mask on when you go out, the dirty stares you receive will eventually remind you.
  • I've been struggling to read people with masks on. I know this sounds obvious. I've only just started having conversations longer than a minute with masked people, you see. I've been out of town for months. Usually this presents as me having talked for too long and not recognising the cues that someone wishes to move on.
  • As I don't consume the news for more than a couple of minutes a week, I've just learned that apparently you can have the dreaded disease and be completely asymptomatic. Is that even a disease? Do I have the disease right now? Do we all?
  • If it's critical, have a backup and redundancy policy. The return of load shedding is a timely reminder that on the farm we experienced electrical outages, internet outages, and multiple hardware failures. I was prepared – spare devices, large power banks that I made a point of keeping charged, backup hard drives in case of disk failure, 4G data for ISP outages. Every single contingency I brought with me got used in that four month period.

The farm workers snickered as I plodded past them.

Rightly so. They were doing the real work. I was some guy taking his pet kettlebell for a walk up the mountain.

Want to rest the grip? Weight overhead and keep walking. This is not advised on the steeper slopes.

Want more grip? There’s no chalk. Wipe the mud off and let the damp briefly dry in the sun.

I stick to the dirt paths because you can’t dump the weight on the brick road. Dumping the weight is satisfying. It nearly rolled into a ravine once.

Some kilometres later, I return to the cottage, depleted yet rejuvenated. The forearms are pulsing. I feel rugged.

The shower is more enjoyable than it would have been had I not gone out. I scrub my face with the expensive exfoliant I’m not allowed to use. I announce loudly that I am using the expensive exfoliant, and that I am worth it.

The forecast for tomorrow is rain.

I could be missing out on some enjoyable interactions with friends.

I could be missing out on business opportunities by not using the most popular local communication medium. What kind of weirdo uses SMS?

Sharing photos is more cumbersome.

Some of my friends are worried about my mental wellbeing.

There are more phone calls now.

My phone usage went from five hours per day to twenty minutes per day.

My life is quieter and has less interruptions.

“Where’s your phone?”

I shrugged. It had been missing for over half a day. Some hours later, when I wanted to make a phone call, I used “Find my iPhone” from my laptop to locate it. It was under some bed covers.

Two weeks ago, I was practically tethered to my phone at every waking hour. It was making me feel awful. I would read any old guff while parenting. Being distracted from the screen for any reason would make me irritable. The guilt was always in the background, but never enough to stop me. I would have one eye on the kids and the other on… something. I can’t remember any of it. It can’t have been that important.

Some weeks ago I started making small changes. Delete Facebook here. Delete Instagram there. In moments of weakness, they would find themselves back on my home screen. I would justify their presence to myself, telling me I needed them for my marketing work.

I was lying to myself because I wanted to be lied to.

All this was before the lockdown closed my business and put me into full time contact with my family. Instead of rearranging my priorities my internet usage got worse. At my peak, my eyes would be on my screen for over 5 hours per day. I know this because my phone would tell me every Sunday, using the time tracking app Screen Time.

I hated my behaviour. I hit break point and I needed to get drastic. I needed to break these habits, but I wanted to retain the upside of owning a smartphone.

Here’s what I did.

  1. Removed all social media apps.
  2. Shifted uninteresting occasional tools into a single folder.
  3. Removed WhatsApp (this was the seismic shift, the gateway habit).
  4. After a couple of days without WhatsApp, my wife told me that she was feeling anxious that she couldn’t reach me any time she wanted. I Installed Between to serve as a relationship instant messenger. This worked great! I wouldn’t recommend this if your gateway habit to phone usage is chatting to your significant other. At this stage in my marriage written communication is little more than “pay this bill”, “we’re out of milk” or “where the fuck are you come down here and help me bath the kids”.
  5. Removed email client. This was tough as I was a serial inbox checker.

What was left on my home screen?

  • A handful of video conferencing clients.
  • A meditation timer.
  • Mobile banking app.
  • Google Maps.
  • Text messages. The only people that text me these days are banks and automated systems asking me to enter a one-time pin.
  • Notes app.
  • Overcast for podcasts.
  • Spotify for music.
  • Kindle for ebooks.
  • Audible for audiobooks.
  • A progressive web app (PWA) that links to the website for bodyweight course I am studying.
  • One other app – keep reading.

This helped me get back down to around 2 hours per day, but on stressful days the minutes would creep up. After a couple of weeks I was back over the 3 hour mark.

The solution was staring me in the face in these weekly usage reports. Even after removing everything else this one application kept tripping me up, over and over. Day after day. If I’m honest with myself, year after year.

It was my security blanket on a bad day. The workaround. The purest form of my weakness.

The internet browser.

The change that finally took my phone from distraction to utility was to remove the internet browser.

But wait, Warren, you can’t! What if you need to google something? What if you urgently need to get a file from your email? And besides, you have an iPhone. iOS doesn’t let you delete the browser.

True, you can’t remove the browser from iOS without jailbreaking. I could have used software like Freedom or Cold Turkey to set time-based rules, but I tried that in the past there was always some emergency exception that spoilt my day when I tried that.

I needed a middle ground where I could get internet access in an emergency, but with enough resistance that I wouldn’t be tempted to haul the browser out just because I was bored or stressed. By placing apps like Kindle and Audible in easy reach, I could occupy myself with something more substantial and less sticky.

Digging around in Screen Time, I found a setting that gave me what I wanted.

Settings > Screen Time > Content & Privacy Restrictions > Allowed Apps

Turn on the Content & Privacy Restrictions, then go into Allowed Apps and turn off Safari. Job done.

This works because it uses inconvenience and your own laziness to your advantage. You know the browser is there, but five steps just to disable it? Too cumbersome to do this on a whim.

And the exceptions? Shortly after making this change, I had to redeem a prescription at the chemist. The prescription was in my email inbox. It was fiddly and fussy to undo the settings and dig the document out, but the frustration was minor. As soon as I forwarded the document, I turned the browser back off.

The relationship I have with my phone is different now. The benefits have only just started to show. I am starting to notice little things. My attention is a little less fractured. I am more present with my children. I don’t feel the compulsion check my phone in case there is something I need to respond to.

My Screen Time is down 72%. Pickups are down 38% and first use is usually Between because the phone will vibrate for that. I know the wife only messages me for something important, and most of the time she calls first. The usage that is left comes from phone calls, video conferencing, Audible and Kindle.

I have regular Zoom calls with my friends and I’m seeing them more than I have in years.

I only use Audible when away from the children doing chores or running errands because I like to listen in peace. Reading on the Kindle is rare. I make a point not to do that when parenting. It doesn’t have the same kind of pull as a browser anyway, in the same way a book doesn’t.

I don’t feel any guilt around this level of consumption. There’s no separation anxiety any more.

I’ve already started working on bringing this philosophy to the other window in my life – the laptop. This is much trickier because using the laptop is tied to both my work and entertainment. I devote time daily to thinking on how to sidestep my terrible self-control.

Some early changes include:

  • A set a routine for inbox checking. This is tough to stick to because it’s in a browser. It’s easy to get sidetracked. I suspect I’ll need to cull some inboxes.
  • I installed the Basecamp dedicated app for project management, which prioritises asynchronous communication. Slack was never a big distraction but it wasn’t that useful either.
  • I am using a text editor that allows me to publish to the web without leaving the app.
  • I knew it was a can of worms but I did cave in and set up a Linux partition on my machine. The idea was to create a distraction free work environment. It needed configuration, which caused countless hours of time that could have been spent elsewhere. For now I have backed away and reframed it as a recreational project, to be undertaken in free time only. So many rabbit holes…

macOS is boring in that it “just works” and I would probably be better off sticking to that. Who knows, maybe ditching the laptop for an iPad with a keyboard and pointer device would be viable at this point. I’d still have the browser to contend with though. I don’t have an answer for that yet other than discipline.

I’m sure I could have made all these problems go away with discipline alone, but there’s a growing body of research that suggests these devices are deliberately making it very hard for many people. After years of trying and failing to break free from my excessive phone usage this is what I came up with. It’s a work in progress. I hope it helps you.

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